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Let There Be Light |
Yesterday we had an interesting Bible Study at church. Pastor Phillip
started out with, “God wants to share His heart with us.” I wrote in my notes, “How
does God feel toward me?” Pastor Phillip expounded on why God allowed His Son
to be bruised… because He wanted us for His family. He read Isa. 53:9-10. “He
had done no violence, nor was any deceit in His mouth. Yet it pleased the LORD
to bruise Him; He has put Him to grief.” Those who believe are in the family of God.
He also read 1 John 5:1-15 in The Passion Translation.
Ironically, 1 John 5:14-15 is a passage that I often quote when I’m praying. “If
I know that You hear me when I pray, then I know I have the petitions that I
have asked of You.”
Another irony in the Bible Study was that Joseph (from the
book of Genesis) came up. In a 5/13/23 blogpost (22 days ago), I spoke about
Joseph stating, “It could’ve been easy for Joseph to become frustrated in his
faith, because all he had was a dream of greatness that kept going in opposite
directions.” I also brought this up in the Bible Study.
I’m taking to heart that this study was definitely
orchestrated by Holy Spirit, and was desperately needed. In an effort to see
that this seed falls on good ground and yields a hundredfold crop, I am going
to explore it further.
A third topic that came up at the Bible Study was the
concept of Spirit versus Reality. I’m sure some of that went over my head, but Pastor
Phillip used the concept of dreams controlling life… the things we cannot see,
touch, taste, hear, or smell… controlling the things that we can see, touch, taste,
hear, or smell.
This morning I was awakened by my dear husband having
nocturnal seizures (these are uncontrolled spasms or convulsions that happen
while one sleeps). In the past, I have prayed many, many, many times that the
seizures would stop. I have cast the devil out of our home. I have asked the
Lord to rebuke the devil. I have also prayed that the Lord would put me into a deep
sleep so that I may sleep through the seizures. None of these have worked. ☹ This is just one of many examples of my unanswered prayers
hanging in limbo, that continue to perplex me on a regular basis. Is God
causing the seizures so I will get out of bed and go study or write? Is that
supposed to be my indication to get up? Even if I heard the Lord communicate the
reason, or direction, I would feel better, but I have nothing but prayers going
up, which brings me full circle back to my initial question, “How does God feel
toward me?”
Three days ago (on 6/1/23), I published another blogpost. It
was a prayer to God that I may have the ability to hear Him speaking in plain
English from His mouth to my ears. Not through a preacher nor a prophet but
straight from His lips to my ears in plain English. I’m not disqualifying
preachers just hopeful that there could be better communication between me and
God so there may be light in my darkness. He could then explain the nocturnal seizures issue,
and I would have a response to my prayers that are hanging out there in limbo
year after year. Then as prayers go up a response will always come back. That
is my concept of relationship… a two-way conversation.
Before I fully knew the call of God on my life, I prayed He
would make me a singer with a voice like Whitney Houston’s so I could travel
the globe singing for His glory. I prayed for this many times. One day, I got a
response. God said, “Daddy can’t make you a singer. Your whole life I have
prepared you for another calling.” He then took me all the way back to
elementary school and walked me through life detail by detail and showed me
those things that were Him preparing me to fulfill His calling. I let go of the
Whitney Houston prayers and accepted what He had shown me.
When I think about how God feels toward me, I have many firsthand
experiences logged in my journal. I will only need to read a short time before
I run across one, then another, and another of God revealing Himself to me, and His
love for me through a song that popped up, or a social media post, or a
commercial on TV, or a Scripture that fell in my spirit, or a Bible Study such
as the one we had on yesterday. Indeed, God does care for me! There is no doubt
about it. He loves me as a Daddy should.
I recently saw a YouTube video of a guy cleaning obstruction
out of a culvert by pulling a car tire through it. On the other end you could
see mud, branches, dead leaves, trash, and debris being pushed out by the tire.
I began to pray that my spiritual culvert would also be cleaned out so God’s
special gifts may flow freely through me without obstructions.
SO NOW, as I come full circle back to my desire for the seed
of God’s word, that I received in Bible Study yesterday, to produce and bear
fruit, I now submit my prayer to God.
Heavenly Father, Jesus said in Matthew 13:23, “The one
who received seed in good ground is the one who truly hears the word and
understands it, and produces a plentiful harvest. I commit my concerns to You
because I know that even the very hairs on my head are all numbered. You’re concerned
about EVERYTHING that concerns me. You know my thoughts afar off, and You know
my heart. I’m not in this thing all by myself. Let this mind be in me which was
also in Christ Jesus. In His name I humbly ask and pray. Amen.
2 Corinthians 4:6 (NLT) For God, who said, "Let
there be light in the darkness," has made this light shine in our
hearts so we could know the glory of God that is seen in the face of Jesus
Christ.
To God be the glory.
Dee Richardson, Voice of the Dove