So, day by day I got angrier and angrier, feeling more and more unappreciated and insignificant. One day I heard a song, Take Me To The King. I stepped boldly into the throne room of God and unleashed a torrent of anger until I was completely emptied out.
Then, during early morning devotion I came across Psalm 73 (game changer). It described my thoughts and answered my questions at the same time. The ungodly will have an end. Though they prosper now, in the end it will not go well for them, unless of course, they turn their hearts to the Lord before its too late.
Do not fret because of evildoers,
Nor be envious of the workers of iniquity.
For they shall soon be mowed down like the grass,
And wither as the green herb.
Psalm 37:1-2
Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him;
Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way,
Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.
Cease from anger, and forsake wrath;
Do not fret—it only causes harm.
For evildoers shall be cut off;
But those who wait on the Lord,
They shall inherit the earth.
Psalm 37:7-9
And, when the godly - those that did the right when they could've easily done the wrong thing - stand before the bema seat of Christ (2 Cor. 5:10), we will receive our crown of glory (1 Peter 5:4). We will hear Him say well done good and faithful servant, you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your Lord."
Even now, as I write this post, I feel the love of God washing over me. He is not unjust to forget our work and labor of love which we have shown toward Him... and our labor is not in vain.
Therefore, my beloved brethren,
be steadfast, immovable,
always abounding in the work of the Lord,
knowing that your labor is not in vain
in the Lord.
(1 Cor 15:58)
Psalm 73:1-3, 12-14, 16-17, 21-28 (NKJV)
Truly God is good to His own, to such as are pure in heart. But as for me, my feet had almost stumbled; my steps had nearly slipped. For I was envious of the boastful, when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
Behold, these are the ungodly, who are always at ease; they increase in riches. Surely I have cleansed my heart in vain, and washed my hands in innocence. For all day long I have been plagued, and chastened every morning.
When I thought how to understand this, it was too painful for me until I went into the sanctuary of God; then I understood their end.
Thus my heart was grieved, and I was vexed in my mind. I was so foolish and ignorant; I was like a beast before You. Nevertheless, I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand. You will guide me with Your counsel, and afterward receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. For indeed, those who are far from You shall perish; You have destroyed all those who desert You for harlotry. But it is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord GOD, that I may declare all Your works.